My last post was in December. This one is long overdue. I’m about to share a part of me in a way that is uncomfortable…on an intimate and personal level…and gasp…in my professional arena no less! My personal and professional worlds never collide and there’s a reason for that…until now. I’ve always guarded my personal life in an attempt to uphold a polished, professional image. Until recently, I thought I was right in doing so…after all, I have a reputation to protect, people who look up to me, and clients who depend on me to be strong. In maintaining my tough exterior I never allowed people to see the real side of me, the vulnerable side, the human side. And perhaps this made me untouchable or intimidating, while I thought it made me admirable and strong. Boy was I wrong!
In the last several months I have; separated from my husband, lost my father, found new love, and watched my business rise and then stall. These are significant life changing events, causing a cascade of emotions. It has been a very difficult and stressful time for me, but I am emerging from these experiences a changed person. I have learned a lot about myself and others. I have taken these learning opportunities and embraced them. I have peeled away the layers to explore the deeper meaning of things. I have found the positive side of every single negative experience I’ve had.
In times of grief, loss, and stress you can dig deep and show yourself what you’re made of. But more importantly, you can be shown what you are not. I learned that I cannot do it all myself, despite how stubborn and independent I am. I had to reach out to people around me for help and support in a time when I needed it. I’m glad it did. It was a valuable lesson to learn.
Today I feel liberated…I feel strong…and I feel at peace.
I’d like to express my sincere gratitude to my very dear friends (you know who you are) who helped me in many ways, to my valued clients who were patient with me over the past several months as I cancelled sessions, to my beautiful children for making me smile every day, even when I didn’t want to, and to the love of my life for staying by my side every day, helping me through the heartbreaking loss of my Dad. To all the amazing people who helped me up when my feet were kicked out from under me, I thank you for your love and friendship. I am truly blessed!
Yours in HEALTH – STRENGTH – FITNESS …I’m baaaaack!